Tired

I am starting to have moments where I feel like things are normal and I forget that my mom is fighting for her life. Moments just sneak in and I feel good and then almost the moment I feel good I think, I need to tell Mom I feel good and I am snapped back to reality. Which is not to say I don't have positive feelings about the future, I do. It's just the weight of it all feels a little bit heavier each time it falls back on me.